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That day,

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chased by the Spanish forces of occupation,

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tired of the lack of freedom,

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of the violation of human rights,

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and of the corruption of the
European capitalist regime,

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I left for Africa.

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There I met Tanyaradzwa.

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Scenes of rural life.

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A long time ago, our people

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used to follow their own culture

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and do traditional ceremonies.

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They used to gather to play mbira

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and sing and drink and invoke the spirits.

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They would talk to God through the spirits.

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But these days people are no longer doing it,

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and things are becoming hard in our country.

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People no longer do what they used to do,

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they don't wear the clothes they used to wear.

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Now they follow the white
man's foreign culture.

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If we don't follow our culture,
rains may not come,

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and poverty will arrive.

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I love my culture and I stick to it.

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I'm not supposed to follow the culture

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of every white, yellow, pink,
green or blue person I meet.

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Our culture is important because your
culture is what you are.

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Many bad things can happen
if you don't stick to your culture.

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You may not find a job,
no matter how educated you may be.

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But if you stick to it,
everything will go smoothly.

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You can have much money
but it may just disappear

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because there are
so many evil spirits around;

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they can be living within you
and bring you bad luck.

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Every member of your family can make you
suffer by driving evil spirits to you.

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I you follow your culture
nothing bad will happen to you.

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I admire people who go back to their culture.

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Some people seem so surprised

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when they see me taking
my snuff everywhere.

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Seeing me so young, they think
I'll be calling evil spirits,

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so they want to pray for me
thinking I'm possessed.

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But I don't care, because
I know where I come from.

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For me, in order to know where
I am and where I'm going to,

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I have to know first where I come from.

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So no one can stop me
from following my own culture,

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no matter how young I am.

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I don't live for anyone, I live for myself.

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I know that my ancestors
are looking after me,

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because it's the flesh
that dies, not the spirit.

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There are so many spirits in the air
we breathe that protect us.

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If you think about it, you shouldn't
adopt other people's culture,

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you shouldn't follow customs
that you don't know,

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wear clothes that don't belong to you,

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put on somebody else's hair...:

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you are putting unknown
spirits on your body.

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You should always remember
where you come from,

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especially here in Zimbabwe.

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I admire people who stick to their culture

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in spite of the difficulties.

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That's the only solution to our problems.

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When you are having problems
what you must do

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is just to take your snuff.

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You should wake up early in the morning,

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take your wooden plate, kneel down,

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put the snuff in it, little by little,

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and talk to your ancestors, telling
them what you want from them,

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in order to chase the evil spirits away.

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And when you bathe,
you should also use your snuff.

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Snuff is a strong herb that
was being used a long time ago

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and we're still using it

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and the generations
to come will be using it.

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We can't stop using it here in Zimbabwe.

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Shona is no longer our language.

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People speak English now.

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Only 2% of the population know
how to count 1-10 in shona.

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That's leaving behind our culture.

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Children should be taught
deep Shona in school.

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It would help them stick to their culture

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and so create a better future.

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In other countries they speak
their own languages

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and are proud of them.

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Here, if you speak Shona
in Harare, you'd be embarrassed

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because everyone
would be speaking in English.

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We should keep our culture
so that we become the same people

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that were living here before us.

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There's nothing new under the sun.

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You cannot change anything.

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The only new things humankind can get

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are nuclear bombs and destruction weapons.

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But our way of living
will always remain the same.

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That's why we must go back to our culture.

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My ancestors, Oh Father,
they have forsaken me.

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My ancestors, Oh King of Kings,
they have forsaken me.

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Oh, oh, Father.

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They have forsaken me.

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Oh, oh, Father.

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They have forsaken me.

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My ancestors, Oh King of Kings,
they have forsaken me.

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My ancestors, Oh Father,
they have forsaken me.

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Ah, ah, wait. I guess I got excited.

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I don't want to clap.

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Hello, my name's Tanyaradzwa.

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I was born in Masvingo 23 years ago.

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It was me and my mother
and my sister and my brother.

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We went out. It was around 9.

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I saw a white thing.

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I told my mum: "There's a white thing
that is following us.

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I guess it's like a dog,

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but it's too white."

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My mum checked and said: "There's nothing.

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You're just scared because it's dark."

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But I would check again: "There is".

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Now I was scared, because I was seeing it.

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My mother wasn't drunk,
though she used to drink beer.

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I was surprised my mum couldn't see it,

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because it would be in front now.

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I could check now that white thing
was side to side with us.

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Then we just went there. I didn't have fun.

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When we were coming back, my mum said:

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"Do you want to use that same road?"

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But I was so scared:

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"Mum, let's use the tarred road.

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I'm scared. I saw it."

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"Ah, come on, let's go."

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I didn't see anything. When we were
reaching our home, there was a hole,

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there was a house being built,
so there was a hole with mud.

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And it was there, sleeping.

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I don't know if it was sleeping,
but it was like... you know...

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Then we went home. Then
my father came back, after a week.

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Our toilet was outside.

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I wanted to pee.

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It was around one. I went out.

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There were mountains opposite.

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I saw the white thing
on top of the mountain.

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I was so scared.

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But I don't know what made me stay
there and look again: I saw fire,

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fire like... you know...

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Instead of peeing in the toiled,
I peed where I was standing.

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Then I went home. I was so scared
I told my mother:

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"That white thing I saw last time,
it's there, and there's fire."

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My father woke up. We went
to check: there was nothing.

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Then early in the morning
an old man came,

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wearing only a black garment,
just tying it, with no shoes,

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and with very old, ancient locks.

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He said: "We want to talk to you".

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My mother said: "What about?"

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"It's about your child. Let's go together."

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We went. There was a 'bira' ceremony,

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People were dancing and
drinking in that village.

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We walked. And that
old man could walk,

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but we were not used to
the long distance.

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When we got there I'd go dancing.

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When we entered the house, there were more
people putting on the same clothes,

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others playing the mbira and the shakers.

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I remember they took water

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inside a clay pot.

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If I can remember, it had snuff,
because I sneezed.

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The old man just took water
and washed my face with it.

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Then they started asking my mum
questions and questions and questions.

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They told her that it was a 'mhondoro'.

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We call it 'mhondoro' in Shona:

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it's a lion, but it changes
to be a human being.

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That old man who came
to fetch us at home

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was the same lion.

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So from that time

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I could see that

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there's something about our culture,

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there's something about us.

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Life and time in the kumusha.

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Talking about the impossible...

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New things...!

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There's nothing new

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I've always wanted to know
about my culture.

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I've always wanted to know
about where I come from.

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I've also wanted to know how people,
how my ancestors used to live,

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a long time ago.

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For you to know where you come from

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and for you to know where you're going,
you have to know your past.

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There are other things that
you don't need to be told,

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'cause you just see them for yourself.

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When I used to grow up

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I used to go to different churches,
but I never understood them,

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'cause I could see they were telling me
different stories from what I was seeing.

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Here, if you refuse to go to church,
or if you are against the church,

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they will tell you that
you've got evil spirits.

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If you try to dig more about
your roots and your culture

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they'll tell you that you're now
praying to other gods,

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you're bringing evil spirits in the house.

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But you cannot run away from the fact that

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we are Blacks, and we are Africans.

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We've got our own roots, we've got
somewhere where we come from, and a past.

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What I'm trying to say is that...

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...it's not like there were not
other people before us.

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So I've always wanted to know how
they used to live and do their own things,

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their clothes, everything about them.

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I've realized that our people,
our ancient elders...

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The way they used to pray:
they used to go under the tree,

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singing and chanting,

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drinking African beer for seven days,

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asking for rains...

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They'd be calling all the spirits. Here in
Zimbabwe we've got 12 different totems.

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They'd be calling all those spirits.

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We used to... we believe... I can't say
"we used to", 'cause I still do it.

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For you to talk to God, you have to
pass through our gods, also.

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You ask your god to pass
your message, your claim,

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to the highest one, to the God above.

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It would be under a big tree, called
'muhacha' in Shona, I don't know in English.

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They used to wear different types of clothes,
made with material like this one, no shoes.

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And most of them had dreadlocks.

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No perfumes, no make up,
no what. Just natural.

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People are still doing it,
but no longer under the tree.

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Sometimes they do it in the house, playing
'mbira', our traditional music.

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We call it 'bira': it's a big ceremony.

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They'd be calling different types of spirits,
and the spirits would be talking.

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If there is something that is gonna happen,
even if there is a drought next year,

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one of the spirits will tell you:

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"You have to do this and that..."

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If you follow things, it will go well for us.

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The problem is that we are not united.

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Some will say "This is bad",
some will say "This is right"...

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So we have to come together
and do one thing.

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This material...

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Before I knew what it means,
I fell in love with the colours.

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One day I wanted to buy the material
and make an outfit,

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but somebody told me: "Ah, no,
'ndezvemashavi', that's for evil spirits."

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But the colours and the pattern
were so nice, before knowing.

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But this has got nothing
to do with evil spirits.

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You put it wherever you want:
you can wrap it,

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you can tie it, you can just hold it.

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As for me, it's for my head.

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Every time I keep my head covered.

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An African woman should
always cover her head

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to get respect.

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If you cover it like this...

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you go around the witchdoctor's house,

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about two times. You don't
have to turn, to look back.

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After that, every morning, at home,

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you take this, you put it
on a plate, take your snuff,

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you start talking about everything that
you want, everything you dream of,

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to be guided, to be given more years,

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just to be guided and protected.

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Pain and freedom,

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death and happiness,

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Nehanda's dreams were made of.

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Chains around our motherland,

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her pride could not think of
being headed off to

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beggary and slavery.

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Nehanda sharpened her spear,

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she handed the ceremonial battle axe
to Kaguvi and Chingaira

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and uttered:

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"Murenga and Nyathi,

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send the soldiers to war.

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You may be as many as the
grains of sand in a river bank,

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but you must not stem from our sorrow

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and your children must not be fattened
by the blood of our breasts."

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Oh, Nehanda, sister of the jungle
lion prophet Chaminuka,

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as your spirit roams the
hungry scorched earth,

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lisping in and out of the plush vegetation,

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fertilised by the rotting
flesh and blood of patriots,

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01:16:15,083 --> 01:16:19,834
can you not see that your dreams
have remained but dreams?

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My father was a loving and caring father.

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He used to do a lot of things for us.

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He would beat my mum,
he wouldn't give my mum food,

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but he would give us food.

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He'd prefer to come and pick us from school,

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taking us to a restaurant or café.

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01:20:23,918 --> 01:20:27,918
What he didn't want was
to give my mother food.

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He didn't even want a teacher to beat me.

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I remember when I was beaten up by a
teacher, and he wanted to suspend me.

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Ah, he was very angry.

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To be honest, my father never yelled at me,
never beat me, never...

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I don't know how to explain it.
Even my young sister and my brother.

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He used to watch for us.

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When my mother used to go to South Africa

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he would come from work earlier,
around 11, and cook for us.

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He would watch for us.

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I was big enough to do all the things,
but he was doing everything for us.

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He would go visiting places with us.

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He was a loving and caring father.

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Even if he went clubbing,

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he'd come late, around
12 or 1, but he'd wake us up,

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he'd bring us some chips, meat, give us
our pocket money for school,

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take us shopping,
do a lot of things for us.

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It was really nice and
I really miss it also.

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My father,

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from the first time that I knew him...

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Actually my father is a very quiet
person, if you see him.

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He doesn't talk much
but he's always happy.

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01:26:13,667 --> 01:26:18,584
But, as far as I can remember,

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he was very violent,
especially to my mum.

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My father would come home drunk
and beat my mum up, for no reason at all.

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If my mum asked: "Where
did you sleep?", he would say:

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"Who are you to ask me?",
and start beating my mum.

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It was something we knew it
would happen every night.

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Even in the camp where we used
to stay, they knew about it:

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"This family every night would
be fighting and fighting..."

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But this other day my father came
in the evening with my mother.

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I was sleeping in the landlord's house.

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He came and woke me up: "Tanya, you have
to come tomorrow to my work place.

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I'll give you money
to buy whatever you want."

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Before I had told him that
I needed shoes and other things.

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So in the morning I went there.
He wasn't there.

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Then I phoned him. He said:

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"Handina mwana anobvongonzwa
nevamwe varume ndiripo!"

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01:31:55,083 --> 01:32:03,667
It's Shona: "I can't let other
men touch you, while I'm around."

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First I didn't get it.
I was young,

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I was 14 or 15.

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I phoned him and he said:
"Come in the evening".

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I went there in the evening,
it was around...

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...around six.

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I went there to his room. He was there.

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01:32:39,584 --> 01:32:41,834
And... Can you cut?

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Why do you hate so much?

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Just because I told the truth?

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I will tell it, no matter what!

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01:34:35,501 --> 01:34:42,501
Just because I told the truth?

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Tell it, tell it!

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01:34:51,001 --> 01:34:55,501
Even if it's your father, say it.

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He has raped me.

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01:35:07,584 --> 01:35:14,584
Tell it, tell it!

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A long walk to Clow Dam.

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Ganja brings different types of spirits.

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Everyone's got something.
When you take ganja you can feel

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that it is you, d'you know what I'm saying?

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You can feel there's something moving,
doing this, something you feel inside,

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you know the feeling,
but I can't explain it.

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You take it to know who you are.

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02:05:00,584 --> 02:05:05,751
It's not that I like to talk
about it all the time, but

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you have to talk about it all the time.

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02:05:18,167 --> 02:05:21,501
Do you understand what I'm trying to say?

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02:05:21,834 --> 02:05:27,417
It's not that I want to talk about it
all the time, but you have to, every time,

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to your friends, because
it's the healing of the nation.

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Yeah, it's true, because...
Now I know who I am.

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02:05:51,083 --> 02:05:58,083
Since the moment you realize who you are,
you cannot run away from yourself.

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That's why I like to be like this.

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02:06:03,001 --> 02:06:09,501
There's no reason for me to do
the make-up, to put human hair,

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02:06:09,667 --> 02:06:13,417
100% human hair, what's that?

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02:06:13,834 --> 02:06:17,417
Where can you find 100% human hair?
From a human being!

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02:06:17,584 --> 02:06:21,501
You're taking another man's hair
and putting it on you.

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02:06:22,751 --> 02:06:29,250
What are you trying to portray?
What picture, what image?

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02:06:29,584 --> 02:06:32,584
It's running away from yourself.

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02:06:33,083 --> 02:06:36,001
If I've got my hair like this,
I should be proud of it.

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02:06:36,083 --> 02:06:39,334
If I want long hair, I let it grow.

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02:06:40,918 --> 02:06:44,000
If I don't want long hair, I'll cut it,
if I want to cut it.

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02:06:44,167 --> 02:06:47,584
It's your hair, other than
taking someone's hair.

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02:06:47,667 --> 02:06:56,001
These other sisters go to the shops
to buy 100% human hair,

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or a pony tail.. Oh, no!

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02:07:03,918 --> 02:07:09,417
You just have to be yourself.
Just like me: I'm happy.

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02:07:09,751 --> 02:07:15,417
I don't stress myself: "What am I gonna put?
Should I buy human hair or a pony's?"

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02:07:16,000 --> 02:07:23,167
I don't stress myself. I just cover
and wash myself. Just me.

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02:07:25,417 --> 02:07:31,083
It's stressful to put
different types of things.

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02:07:31,501 --> 02:07:36,834
Even, talking of money, it's expensive;

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02:07:36,918 --> 02:07:40,167
every week you want
to change your hairstyle.

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02:07:40,417 --> 02:07:43,834
If you want to style your hair,
you can style it.

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02:07:45,751 --> 02:07:52,584
See my hair? If I want to tie it here,
it's a new hairstyle.

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02:07:52,918 --> 02:07:59,751
If I want, I can put it like this.
I can even plait it on my own, if I want.

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02:08:00,417 --> 02:08:05,083
I'm changing my hairstyle, better than
using human hair or a pony's...

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02:08:06,167 --> 02:08:08,250
I really want to talk to the people.

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02:08:08,834 --> 02:08:13,584
I know one day I gonna reach to them,
one day they gonna listen to me.

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02:08:15,501 --> 02:08:18,584
There's a lot of things I want to say

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so that they understand what life is all about,

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02:08:22,751 --> 02:08:24,083
so that...

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they don't run away from themselves.

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02:19:01,334 --> 02:19:04,584
The reason why I want to change my surname

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is because of my family,

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02:19:08,751 --> 02:19:13,000
of the people using the same surname
that I'm using, my relatives.

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And my father.

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02:19:17,250 --> 02:19:21,001
What they did to me, and to my mother...

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02:19:23,250 --> 02:19:28,167
I just feel I can't be part of them,
I can't be in their family,

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02:19:28,417 --> 02:19:31,250
because they are very heartless.

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02:19:32,000 --> 02:19:34,250
They are cruel.

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02:19:36,834 --> 02:19:41,501
They don't feel for others.
They're very selfish.

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02:19:44,751 --> 02:19:48,250
They made our life miserable.

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02:19:48,501 --> 02:19:54,918
For my father to do what he was doing,
it was because of his family.

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02:19:55,334 --> 02:19:58,083
There are other things
I don't even blame him for:

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I know it was his family.

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02:20:05,918 --> 02:20:10,083
Like when my parents were getting divorced:

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02:20:10,918 --> 02:20:19,751
My father left us with no food. We'd go to
my grandparents to ask for food.

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02:20:20,751 --> 02:20:24,501
They said they don't have.
They wouldn't give us food.

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02:20:24,918 --> 02:20:29,250
My mother would give me a letter:
"Can you just buy these kids

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02:20:29,918 --> 02:20:33,334
one loaf of bread?"
But they said they didn't have any.

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02:20:33,501 --> 02:20:37,584
They'd let us to starve,
though they had everything.

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02:20:39,501 --> 02:20:43,918
So, I don't know...
I can't just use that surname.

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02:20:44,334 --> 02:20:48,918
I wish if I just could change it
and have another family,

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02:20:49,250 --> 02:20:51,834
other relatives.

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02:20:53,083 --> 02:20:58,918
Now they don't even know
where we live, how we live.

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02:21:00,083 --> 02:21:02,918
They don't even care, they don't even ask.

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02:21:03,417 --> 02:21:05,918
They're just heartless, the whole family.

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02:21:06,167 --> 02:21:08,501
I don't know what's wrong with them, but...

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02:21:09,167 --> 02:21:11,501
The way they treated us, ahh...!

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02:34:12,083 --> 02:34:16,083
My ancestors' spirits, come back.

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02:34:16,501 --> 02:34:20,834
Ah, hey, my ancestors, we welcome you.

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02:34:29,751 --> 02:34:33,751
My ancestors, why are the children crying?

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02:34:34,001 --> 02:34:38,001
Ah, hey, my ancestors, we welcome you.

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02:34:46,001 --> 02:34:50,083
My ancestors, why is Tanya crying?

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02:34:50,417 --> 02:34:54,000
Ah, hey, my ancestors, we welcome you.